STAMFORD -- Malcolm Dean lost his edge in the months after his brother, William, died somewhere inside the north tower. He felt a creeping apathy through the anthrax scares, the bogus bomb threats and the drives past the rubble of ground zero.
For the first time in his career as a New York City paramedic, he didn't feel like doing his job. He didn't feel like being a part of other people's grief. He had his own. Within a year he took a job in the Rockland County suburbs, near his home. Now he works as a captain for Stamford Emergency Medical Services.